It's been awhile..

Holy cow. It has been forever since I've written on this thing. So much has happened this school year. Let me highlight some of what's been going on. Then I have to go to bed!

• Started my senior year of college
• Was the PA for another amazing Core group!
• We had an amazing Cedar Bend experience
• Faced the reality of cancer in a beloved family member.
• Got the student leader position for the Mexcio spring break mission trip!
• Making plans to student teach in Chicago next fall.
• I leave to Africa in May!
• And other exciting things ;) !!!!!  

Well I don't want to post too many details right now! Hope the semester is ending well for everyone. Exams, final projects, paper, and group presentations seem to be consuming everyone's lives! God Bless!

Here they come!

The freshman move-in tomorrow! I am stoked to meet my Core group. I have complete trust that the Lord is going to do some big things this school year.

How can I / you show God to those around me/you this year?

Hope and faith...

Sometimes life can be a silly thing can't it? Latly, I've felt like I am in such a strange time in my life. Like a transition peroid or something. But, I've had this peace and this hope, that it's all under control. Hope for the future. Hope the times of confusion and lack of understanding will past. Hope that the Lord is in control. "Because my HOPE is you YOU..." Psalm 25:23. I think part of faith is having hope. Hope for better times and hope for the times you're going through right now.

Well anyways...on a different note. I am in the process of packing to move back to school this Sunday. I am heading back early for PA training!! I am excited, but it's scary at the same time, because it's my senior year. The sooner school starts, the sooner I have to figure out my life. whew! None the less, I am excited for this year to start, and see what is in store. There is so much to look forward to and have HOPE for! :)

One last note. My mom had surgery this week and was diagonised with coloan cancer. We would appericate prayers for her healing. It is very treatable and she will be okay. It's just a matter of going through the process. It's just hard getting ready to head back to school and find this out. It's all about hope and faith that the Lord has it under control and in His good plans!

Lately, I have been believing the lies that I am not good enough, that no matter what I do, I will never be "good" in the eyes of God. Because I fall into sin, because I do not always tithe all my money, because I stumble, pick myself up, and start over, because I don't always have the complete faith. It's really been getting to me lately. Until yesterday, when I picked up Velvet Elvis by Rob Bell, as was flipping through the pages I've already read, and stumbled upon an area that I stared and wrote next to it "I need to learn this."

I think this is something almost all Christian struggle with at some point in their walk. I would just like to share what Rob Bell wrote in his book, that is changing my perspective.

"Trust that Jesus can repair scarred and broken things. It is trusting that I am loved. That I always have been. That I always will be. I don't have to do anything. I don't have to prove anything or achieve anything or accomplish one more thing. That exactly as I am, I am totally accepted, forgiven, and there is nothing I could ever do to lose this acceptance."

Don't get me wrong, this doesn't justify my sin, or lack of tithing, or doubt, but it helps me define who I am in Christ and who I am to Christ. It shows me that Christ accpects me just as I am, and I do not have to impress Him with anything. How awesome!